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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
My daily dosage.     Confinement will soon come to an end ! Another 10 days ,then i can bathe to my hearts content ! Many issues have been up in my mind, however no one I could rely to , not even Lee. The most disgusting part is, I hate to be sandwiched. Many things have been getting on my nerves and it really adds on to maternity blues. I couldnt understand why is it so hard to please both sides of the family, and why doesnt one self know what is automatic. If everyone tries to give in a little and be less sarcastic in the way of talking, things would turn out better isnt it ? In fact, there is much miserys in me.Thinking of what might happen after confinement, more issues would rise. Give me some space to breathe my lungs, this is just a piece of my thought. I gave birth to my own daugther, cant I be the one deciding things for her? Why is it that there is no more of our own time where you would actually want to follow on everything that involves us or even baby. Pretty much I know you cared about baby, but cant you give us some space to do what we want? Is it that you think we're still young that we dont know a single shit or is it that youre the one providing money so you can have your say in everything ? I know by having the first grand baby, she'll be the little precious of everyone. But with all your actions, it adds on to my irritation level. Its my girl, shouldnt I have the right to visit the doctor with her even if im in the midst of confinement? Why can oneself be so selfish? Even when it arrives at the clinic, cant I have the right to carry my own baby even though ive did that most of the time at home? This is really pissing me off. You had your own way to dote your grandchild, but please give me some space when I am her mother ! Yes,I am young and ignorant thats why I got myself pregnant, but now ive already gave birth to her please please give me the right to decide what i want and give me the time of our own. Only the 3 of us ! Even on my post natal checkup, you want to tag along. You wouldnt know how happy I was knowing that I could have the time of my own with Lee. Even when its only that pathetic 1 hour. This dont reflect on how I will disobey on whatever you say, but I just need some space to rant out about my feelings. It had been cope inside me for the longest time ! FUCK, i say ! Baby girl woke up at 3am and not wanting to sleeep , feeeling fucking pissed off now. |
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